Friday, June 27, 2014

Relevant Life Lyrics, pt. 1



"Dreaming along at a pace you'll understand
Go go go go go go
No no no no no"
- Daniel in the Den, Bastille

Isn't that the truth? "Here is this opportunity, invest your heart into it! OH, wait..." #storyofmylife ;)

Thursday, June 26, 2014

A Little T.S. Eliot

These are only hints and guesses,
Hints followed by guesses; and the rest
Is prayer, observance, discipline, thought and action.
The hint half guessed, the gift half understood is Incarnation.
Here the impossible union
Of spheres of existence is actual,
Here the past and future
Are conquered, and reconciled...


This is a little excerpt from his Four Quartets, "The Dry Salvages."

I actually have been reading excerpts from another blog I follow. See her part one here, and her part two here.

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Revelations from Hobbits

“And we shouldn’t be here at all, if we’d known more about it before we started. But I suppose it’s often that way. The brave things in the old tales and songs, Mr. Frodo: adventures, as I used to call them. I used to think that they were things the wonderful folk of the stories went out and looked for, because they wanted them, because they were exciting and life was a bit dull, a kind of a sport, as you might say. But that’s not the way of it with the tales that really mattered, or the ones that stay in the mind. Folk seem to have been just landed in them, usually—their paths were laid that way. . . . But I expect they had lots of chances, like us, of turning back, only they didn’t. And if they had, we shouldn't know, because they’d have been forgotten. We hear about those as just went on—and not all to a good end, mind you; at least not to what folk inside a story and not outside it call a good end.”

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Conversations that make me laugh, pt. 1

Me: I almost just gave him my number, but I didn't want to seem flirty...or desperate.
My younger 21-year old sister: Nah, that is not flirtatious...intentional. Strategic. Approachable.
Me: I guess I need help in this department.
Sister: What are sisters for? :) Trust me. I'm around college students all the time...you are not flirty.
Me: I know I am not, that's the problem! HA! I need to learn how to be more..."intentional" ;)

Yep, I am a true Jane Bennet & Elinor Dashwood, sorry guys! I'm working on becoming more of a Marianne. *SIGH* Yup, and I'm being schooled by a 21-year old. Hopefully, I won't be single forever. ;)

Friday, June 20, 2014

Finishing Strong: A Marathoner's Story

It came to my attention that The Rock n' Roll Marathon and Half Marathon series are happening tomorrow in Seattle. Back in 2009, I participated in the first inaugural Seattle Rock n' Roll race by running my very first half marathon with my sister. Two years ago, this weekend, I ran my first full marathon. And here is the story of my race. I originally wrote this a couple of years ago for a narrative essay assignment for my one of my English classes.


Finishing Strong

            Running is something I have always enjoyed. Throughout my active childhood I would often find myself running up and down soccer fields, or basketball courts. I even participated in track in junior high and high school. Sprinting down the soccer field to score a goal, or leaning in to finish first in the 400-meter race both seem like mere trifles compared to the 26.2 mile stretch of a marathon.

            Almost ten years after my athletic high school days, I decided to run a marathon. The process of deciding to run a marathon seemed simple enough: I previously ran two half marathons, and don’t two halves equal a whole? A new running challenge heighted my interest enough to sign up online for the “Seattle Rock ‘n’ Roll Marathon.” “The Rock ‘n’ Roll” events are a well-established worldwide marathon series. Three years prior, I participated in the “Seattle Rock ‘n’ Roll Half Marathon,” and enjoyed it enough to register for their full. Signing up eight months prior to the actual race day was the easiest part. Little did I know, at that time, just how much training would really cost.

            Training for a marathon taught me commitment, consistency, and discipline. I had to commit to train daily, week after week, which takes consistency. I had to commit to training, and reprioritized my schedule many times to make room for it. Discipline came with the daily choice of going to the gym, or for a run, even when I did not feel like it. I had to be dedicated to a routine.

My routine consisted of running five times per week along with cross-training three times per week. Mondays were weight-lifting days, Tuesdays were interval days, Wednesdays were hill and cross-training days, Thursdays were my day off, Fridays and Saturdays were running days, and Sundays were my long run days. I repeated this week after week. I learned that I will succeed as well as I train.

            So, on I went. I trained for approximately four months. It was a tiresome four months, with hopes that each stride would bring me closer to my goal, and each lunge would make me just a bit stronger than before. Devoutly, I followed my regime week after week trying to push away the still small doubt whispering, “Can you really do this?” As a first time marathon runner, I suppose that is something you have to face until you cross, or don’t cross, the finish line on race day.

The days, weeks, and months trudged along until it finally came: race day. Saturday, June 23rd, 2012. And of course in true stereotypical Seattle fashion the forecast sounded something like partly cloudy, rain likely, with highs in the mid to low fifties. I literally prayed without ceasing for it not to rain. Not that running in rain is completely unbearable. However, when you run in the rain for any distance longer than about ten miles chafing is inevitable, and chafing is unbearable.

Four a.m. hit. My alarm buzzed to awaken me to the big day. I fixed my favorite pre-workout breakfast, at the time: oatmeal clumped together with blueberries, a little honey, agave, and protein powder, topped off with a dash of cinnamon. I recall glancing out the kitchen window into the dawn, no rain, not yet anyway.

After breakfast, and hydrating myself with one huge glass of water, my parents drove me down to Seattle. We prepared for hefty traffic and limited parking, so we left at five a.m. I navigated us through the back streets of downtown Seattle in hopes to avoid traffic and the maze of road closures. I guess I did my job well for we arrived with an hour to spare. We meandered into a nearby McDonald’s. Not the classiest place for Seattleites to pick up their morning coffee, but it was the closest establishment open to fulfill our addiction.

Seven a.m. start time advanced and my gracious parents loaded themselves up with my extra layers of clothing, my recovery drinks, and my snacks for afterwards. After hitting up the huge line of port-a-potties, my parents wished me well with hugs and pictures, and then sent me off to the start line.

 I was herded into crowded corral number eleven, which was shadowed under the Space Needle. Strangely humid, and still no sign of rain, the national anthem rang out. After applauding cheers the gun fired to release the first corral. Jumping up and down, and stretching out my legs, corral eleven slowly crept forward to the start line. About fifteen minutes after the first gunshot it was my turn. I stayed close to the left side of the starting line, so my parents could get a glimpse of me as I passed by. Five, four, three, two, one, and the shot rang out. Corral eleven was off.

I certainly felt misplaced in corral eleven because everyone sped by me. Within the first three miles, as we weaved our way through the streets of downtown Seattle, I had to keep reminding myself it was only the beginning: pace yourself. At about mile four, I felt comfortable with my pace. Keeping about ten minute miles, I continued on; all the while keeping my mind occupied with scheduling my consumption of electrolyte chews.

Mile six thinned out the crowd as the marathoners split from the half marathon runners. My feet pounding the trails step by step along Seward Park, I took in the beautiful morning view of a serene Lake Washington. I relaxed into my gate as I took another moment to silently express my gratefulness for the weather. It was perfect. It was neither too hot nor too cold, and not a single drop of rain had fallen. In these miles, miles six through twelve, I felt contentment.

I turned the bend at mile twelve and a half, which intersected again with the half marathoners. I felt good about myself as I realized I was quickly passing those half marathoners, who were trotting along their sixth mile. As I approached the half way marker (13.1 miles), I glanced down at my watch to check my time: yes, right on time. I was keeping my pace right where I wanted it to be.

Mile fifteen held high expectations; it was where I embarked upon the I-90 bridge. Not only did I-90 transport me across Lake Washington, which offered breath-taking views of Seattle and the lake, but I-90 also guided me through tunnels. It seemed like I-90 would be a memorable experience, and I was looking forward to accomplishing it. It seemed like it would be the easy and flat span of the race. Well, I-90 was definitely memorable, but not for the reasons I had originally hoped. I-90 was a long span back and forth for miles fifteen through twenty-one. Little did I consider, prior to trekking along the bridge, that for six long miles my footing would be uneven. The bridge is built in such a way to help with water drainage. So, the two edges of the bridge tilt inwards. This is scarcely noticeable when you are driving across the bridge in a car, but extremely painful for your feet, calves, and legs to pound and compensate step after step for six insufferable miles.

I forced myself on. The clouds started to part, and the sun broke through. I was grateful for no rain, but the sun sure picked a poor time to come out. My body was working overtime already trying to get through this ominous bridge, and now the sun added to the heat that my body was trying to expel. The sweat must have been streaming for I noticed that uncomfortable sting of chaffing. I tried to readjust my shirt, but with no avail. I was parched; and annoyed I wondered, “Where are those drink tables? Aren’t they supposed to be at every mile?”

It was a joyous sight to see as my feet glided to the oasis, a drink table. As quickly as I could, I chugged down a cup of water and a cup of Gatorade. Barely refreshed, I wondered for the first time in the race if I was actually going to make it. I had trained up to twenty-two miles, and had felt satisfied with my results, but I was only on mile eighteen.

I continued on, trying not to think about the pain. The other racers must have felt it too. Many of the other contestants pulled themselves off to the side of the bridge to stretch their cramped and stiff muscles and joints. I kept telling myself, “Just keep moving forward.” At mile twenty, I glanced down at my watch to see another doubtful disappointment: I was off my pace. The pain that encompassed my legs led my mind to justify, “Hey, just be happy to finish!”

A few paces later, I approached the last tunnel that signaled the end of I-90. I gave a sigh of relief and entered into the dark and shaded tunnel. It took my eyes a second to adjust and when they did I could not believe what they beheld: the last tunnel was a hill! Feeling sluggish and tired I surrendered to walking until I surmounted the hill.

After power walking for about mile, I escaped the tunnel back into the light of day. I tried to regain momentum, but moving from walking to jogging was like watching a steam locomotive leave the station. It was slow and painful to jog again after walking. At that moment, I resigned to just keep jogging the remainder of the race, no matter how much I wanted to stop. 

Mile twenty-one slipped into mile twenty-two, and before I knew it I was on mile twenty-three. For some reason mile twenty-three seemed to be my magic number. I am not sure what fueled me; maybe it was the idea that I only had three more miles left? Whatever it was, I felt rejuvenated and resolved to finish strong. My pace quickened as I passed person by person. I regained rhythm though my knees were screaming for me to stop.

The sign marker for mile twenty-four passed as it led us into the Alaskan Way Viaduct tunnel. This tunnel was considerably easier for me than the I-90 tunnel. Again, person by person, I was advancing on. Mile twenty-five, I was so close. Crowds of people lined the streets holding signs and cheering us onto the finish.

I rounded the corner of mile twenty-six, and almost choked on a sigh of emotion. There it was: the finish line! What a beautiful site for a sore body. I thought to myself, “It actually exists!” It did exist, but before crossing it I had to endure the reality of conquering the short and steep hill that lay before it. At that moment, nothing could have stopped me. A surge of energy and strength filled my body. I broke into a run for the finish, while passing a few people along the way.

My feet plunked across the blue finish line as crowds of people watched for their loved ones to finish. My chaffed and sweaty body ached, my breath shortened by my mad dash for the finish, and my legs lamed by twenty-six grueling miles, but I did it! I finished a marathon! I almost cried as a man congratulated me, and placed a finisher’s medal around my neck. I finished my first marathon, and I finished in the top third. Not only did I finish, but I finished strong.

            Training for, and running, a marathon taught me a lot. It taught me the benefits of commitment, consistency, and discipline. However, one of the most amazing things running a marathon has shown me is my capacity for stamina. If you were to ask me three years ago to run a marathon, I would have laughed and sternly replied, “No way!” My excuses would have been, “There is no way I could do that,” or, “I can’t run that long!” I kept putting limits on myself. Running a marathon revealed to me the amazing fortitude that is in human beings to keep breaking past limitations. There were times when I felt I could not do one more mile, but, by the grace of God, He gave me stamina to keep going and to finish strong.

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Review: Bastille

So, I just was introduced to this wonderful band by a dear friend a couple of months ago. However, I am kind of slow-moving and skeptical when it comes to giving myself to new music. It wasn't until like two weeks ago that I purchased their extended album, All This Bad Blood, and have been listening to it non-stop. (Yes, I am also one of those people...sorry! I find new music and I listen to it obsessively from anywhere to a few months to a year - I think Mumford and Florence were both a year strong and probably the longest. And strangely enough, I usually don't stop listening to a certain artist because I am sick of it, it is usually due to the fact that move on because I have found something new to obsess over).

Anyway, well, like you do when you obsess over a new artist you look to see if they are touring somewhere near you sometime in the near future. I came to find out that they were actually just in my area of the world not that long ago...that was a sad, sad realization. Prior to Tuesday, June 17th, the closest date they released for a tour stop was sometime in October and on the East coast (I live on the West coast). And, yes, I may or may not have conspired with my sister to see if we could actually make the trip happen...yep, I did.

However, to my utter joy and delight on Tuesday I found out that they are coming to my neck of the woods (city) in November. They decided to do a Bad Blood Last Stand tour. YAY!!!

And better yet, I got access to pre-sale! And even better...wait for it...I got tickets!!! I AM GOING TO SEE BASTILLE...LIVE!!! *FREAK-OUT*

Okay, so, ever since I saw Mumford and Sons live a year ago I am trying to make it a priority to see the bands I really like live. Shortly after I saw Mumford live they ended up breaking up (but hopefully coming back). I felt incredibly grateful that I was able to see them live (I must do a Mumford post, they are so great and that concert meant a lot to me). So, I didn't want to miss an opportunity to see Bastille live.

Why is this grown woman freaking out about a band from Britain?! (Well, isn't being British cool enough?!) It has been a long time since I have listened to an album and have actually enjoyed the entire album, every song. And I wasn't expecting that from them actually. I was expecting maybe something similar, but slightly not as cool as Mumford (though their styles of music aren't similar). I love Mumford and Sons music, but there are some songs on both of their albums that I skip past and could do without, not so with Bastille's album (I have their extended album All This Bad Blood). I mean there are like two songs that, I don't hate, they just aren't as favorite as many others on the album.

They have just been surprising me again and again, and I like that. I like that one of the first times I listened to their album I was driving to work and Tuning Out came on, and I was like, "This sounds like a Christmas song?? Wait, this is a Christmas song! It is O Holy Night?! What?! Who puts a cover to one of the most powerful Christmas songs ever on their normal album?! Cool, I like that...a  lot!"

Also, I am a bit of a history NERD. So, the fact that he (Dan Smith, lead singer) wrote a song about Pompeii and Icarus won me over. However, the first Bastille song I fell in love with was Flaws and it is still one of my favorites...so much love for that song, perhaps I will do an individual post on it one of these days.

I also have been watching a few interviews with the band (you know that other thing you do when you obsess over an artist). Dan talks about how he writes songs and I appreciate his approach. He says he tries to steer clear of writing autobiographical songs (which I appreciate to an extent) and that he writes about things he has read, studied, heard, or about other people's experiences. He admits that there are pieces of his life in his music, and I think that is inevitable, but he tries to write his songs with ambiguity - which is so great! This leaves his music open to interpretation and thus I think reaches a wider audience.

Also, something else I didn't expect about Bastille was an underlining note of optimism, or hope, in their music, which sounds completely contradictory to say because the title and theme of their album is Bad Blood. It is about life and it is about humanity, which I love, but it isn't vengeful or hateful. And on a slightly unrelated note, it also isn't vulgar, ostentatious, or stereotypical popular culture music. It is vulnerable. And maybe I can't quite put my finger on why I feel that way about their music, but I do and I kind of like that it is still a mystery, that means I have more listening and searching to do.

Anyway, for now, I will leave you with some lyrics from their song Haunt. There is a line in that song that so sticks with me: "the terrifying rarity of truth." See below for more.

The wisdom we learn as our minds,
They do burn,
They’ll entice naivety in youth,
As adults we’ll grow and maturity shows,
All the terrifying rarity of truth,
As you turn to your mind,
And your thoughts they rewind,
To old happenings and things that are done,
You can’t find what’s passed,
Make that happiness last,
Seeing from those eyes what you’ve become,
What you’ve become…

- Haunt (Demo), Bastille, All This Bad Blood

Lastly, I leave you with a few songs that I really love. Besides Flaws, I think the other two songs are only on their extended album.

Durban Skies. Dan wrote this song about his parents meeting, falling in love and getting married. How precious is that! His parents are from South Africa, hence Durban. I love that in this song he says, "all I got to be thankful for."

 

And, of course, here are two great versions of Flaws. Enjoy! I know I do.

 
 
 
AND, one more because I really like this song...a lot! This is Laughter Lines.
 
 


 

Monday, June 9, 2014

Review: Weight of Living, Pt. I

Song: Weight of Living, Pt. I

Artist: Bastille

Album: Bad Blood (Bonus Track), or All This Bad Blood

Year Released: 2013

Background and Interesting Facts: So, here is a little background on this song. One of the lyrics, "there's an albatross around your neck," refers to a metaphor created from a poem by Samuel Taylor Coleridge, The Rime of the Ancient Mariner (1798). In nautical mythology (if that is even a thing), an albatross was considered a sign of good luck.  However, in his poem, the mariner shoots the albatross, which thus releases suffering upon the ship and the crew. The mariner feels as though the albatross is hung around his neck. "Instead of the cross, the Albatross about my neck was hung."

The albatross metaphor is also referred to in Mary Shelley's Frankenstein:  "…but I shall kill no albatross…"

And, the last reference, Charles Baudelaire has a poem entitled Albatross.

L'Albatros:
Souvent, pour s'amuser, es homes d'équipage
Prennent des albatros, vastes oiseaux des mers,
Qui suivent, indolents compagnons de voyage,
Le navire glissant sur les gouffres amers.

A peine les ont-ils déposés sur les planches,
Que ces rois de l’azur, maladroits et honteux,
Laissent piteusement leurs grandes ailes blanches
Comme des avirons trainer à côté d’eux,

Ce voyageur ailé, comme il est gauche et veule !
Lui, naguère si beau, qu’il est comique et laid !
L’un agace son bec avec un brûle-gueule,
L’autre mime, en boitant, l’infirme qui volait !

Le Poète est semblable au prince des nuées
Qui hante la tempête et se rit de l’archer ;
Exilé sur le sol au milieu des huées,
Ses ailes de géant l’empêchent de marcher.

The Albatross:
Sometimes, to entertain themselves, the men of the crew
Lure upon deck an unlucky albatross, one of those vast
Birds of the sea that follow unwearied the voyage through,
Flying in slow and elegant circles above the mast.

No sooner have the disentangled him from their nets
Than this aerial colossus, shorn of his pride,
Goes hobbling pitiably across the planks and lets
His great wings hang like heavy, useless oars at his side.

How droll is the poor floundering creature, how limp and weak –
He, but a moment past so lordly, flying in state!
They tease him: One of them tries to stick a pipe in his beak;
Another mimics with laughter his odd lurching gait.

The Poet is like that wild inheritor of the cloud,
A rider of storms, above the range of arrows and slings;
Exiled on earth, at bay amid the jeering crowd,
He cannot walk for his unmanageable wings.
 
 
I think all the literary references this song carries within itself is enough to make it awesome, or at least intriguing. I guess I am a sucker for bands who use literary references (*cough* Mumford & Sons). The beautiful reality this song offers are things we have all faced in life: our regrets, our mistakes, our depression, our bad days, years, seasons, etc. At the same time, the song offers hope. It doesn't ignore the reality that our stuff is still there, or that our stuff will happen, but it doesn't have to dictate how we choose to live our lives each day. That is why one of my favorite lines in this song is, "oh there's a light." There is always hope. My second favorite line is, "It's the sun in your eyes," which, to me, refers to the ability we have in life to choose within ourselves the light, the ability to choose hope. Or, as I like to imagine the lyrics to be, "It's the Son in your eyes."





Lyrics:

There's an albatross around your neck
All the things you've said
and the things you've done
Can you carry it with no regrets
Can you stand the person you've become
Oh there's a light
Oh there's a light
 
Your Albatross, let it go, let it go
Your Albatross shoot it down, shoot it down
When you just can't shake
The heavy weight of living
 
Stepping forward out into the day
Shrugging off the dust and memory
Though it's soaring still above your head
It is out of sight and none shall see
Oh there's a light
Oh there's a light
Your Albatross, let it go, let it go
Your Albatross shoot it down, shoot it down
When you just can't shake
The heavy weight of living
When you just can't seem to shake
The weight of Living

It's the sun in your eyes, in your eyes
It's the sun in your eyes, in your eyes
It's the sun in your eyes, in your eyes
It's the sun in your eyes, in your eyes
 
Your Albatross, let it go, let it go
Your Albatross shoot it down, shoot it down
When you just can't shake
The heavy weight of living
When you just can't seem to shake
The weight of Living
 
The weight of Living
The weight of Living
The weight of Living
The weight of Living